Haven't blogged in forever, but just saying that I am about to have one of the best nights ever with one of my most favorite people in the world.

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Wrong Decisions?

When I was in 8th grade I had to make a huge decision and sometimes I wonder if I made the wrong one in the end. I loved to do all kinds of sports when I was little: soccer, swimming, basketball, dance, and softball. Softball took up the entire summer and then some in the school year. Dance is all year round and is very time consuming as well. Here was the dilemma. Do I keep playing softball and be a sporty girl or do I continue with dance and become a girly girl?There wasn't time to do both. But, there were positives and negatives to both sides. I loved softball but at the same time I hated it, only because of the team I was on and the coach that was coaching us was super mean. I loved dance and being on the stage but it is so tiring and expensive. So which way do I go? Obviously I picked dance, since I've mentioned dance team and such, but I think back and I miss softball terribly. I was a decent catcher and I loved doing it. I was really good at bunting and running really fast so I could steal bases. I miss getting dirty and sunflower seeds and softball tans. Whenever I go to a baseball game I suddenly get this empty feeling like I need to play softball. But I love dancing too. I still try to play catch with my boyfriend but he plays all the time and gets sick of it. I don't have any of my catching stuff anymore which upsets me because I want to see what I can do now.

I don't know if others agree with this, but I feel like I can be a girly girl and a sporty kind of girl. I try to be both sides because, well, I don't really know who I am yet because of the feeling I get when I miss playing.

Realization

I have realized so much throughout the summer that its not even funny.
I've realized that I don't need friends that don't treat me right and I have other friends that care about me and want to be my friend.
I've realized that what I did in October was the best decision of my life and then I may have made a couple other mistakes after that but now I know for sure that I picked the right choice and it has made me a happier person.
I've realized that love really is possible in high school and if adults tell you its not, well it is.
I've realized that my boyfriend is an amazing person, even if he jokes around with me I need to learn not to take things so seriously and to lighten up because hes different than anyone I've ever been with.
I've realized that it's our senior year and we have to make the best of it because pretty soon we will be meeting new people and starting a new life.
I've realized that some of my closest friends are leaving me in only one month.

It's been a great summer of realization so far. I can't wait to see what else will come in the next couple months.

Texas

I went to Texas for a couple of days with my older cousins to visit my grandparents. Sounds like a pretty sweet, easygoing trip right? Wrong. See, my cousins are both older than me, and their mom's are sisters and best friends while their brother, my dad, gets put off. So that leaves me out in the open to make fun of and talk about behind my back the whole trip. You think drama lives in high school, talk about people that have known you your entire life and know everything about you and your family. They talked so much crap about me I barely want to see them again. Not to mention the fight with my boyfriend, my grandparents old age and getting Alzheimer's disease, my friends are having a girls night, and my parents are going off doing all these fun things while I'm gone. Talk about the worse trip ever. I'm just glad to be home again.

It's summer thank christ

Summer has arrived and blogging is no longer required for class but I've decided that it's a great place to let out my emotion that has been inside me for so long.

Say hello to my little friend Susie. Susie was my best friend until we got in an argument and weren't talking again but Susie has this constant urge to be mean to me and we are in the same friend group so she decides to just laugh at me behind my back and talk about me to my other friends. I don't like Susie. Luckily she is going away to college soon so maybe I can get my friends back and move on with my life.

Say hello to my boyfriend's cat, Bitch. She decided that she would go have sex with another cat and get pregnant and have little baby kittens all over the yard. So when she did have them, she was a horrible mother and didn't take care of them at all. The other day I decided to go down and see the little kittens and one was on the floor shaking and dying and crying out for help. And where is Bitch the mother? Sitting up on the porch not even caring about her dying baby in need of help. I yelled and screamed at her and asked her why she was not doing anything but she did not respond, of course. I cried the next day when I saw the tiny kitten, dead on the floor.

There will be more updates of how summer goes throughout the next couple months but so far I could only ask that there be more sun so I can get a little tanner, other than that everything else is perfect<333 love lyfe.

I miss...

Here are things that I miss dearly in my life:

I miss going to the dance studio every Sunday and dancing my heart out even though I didn't really want to, the smell of the whole place still haunts me every Sunday.
I miss my old neighbor friends and how we used to play together every single day outside and we just played together and nobody cared about anything other then that we were together.
I miss elementary school where there was no homework and nap time and snack time and recess and there was no drama.
I miss my old house with its pink shutters and stairs leading up to the door.
I miss living in Florida where it was always warm outside and it didn't snow.
I miss playing video games like Harry Potter, Sing It!, and DDR with my friends, afternoons were filled with these games.
I miss my old pets and how they always liked to cuddle with me and play with me, now I'm never home and my cat is only in love with my mom.
I miss the old dance team and going to Disney World with them and always getting to see them every day.
I miss Read Photography and getting dance pictures done there every year in all my costumes.
I miss the times I had with old "friends" and the memories we shared together.
I miss riding the bus to middle school and feeling like I was cool when I was in 8th grade and got to ride in the back of the bus.
I miss my family's cooking at holidays because now I'm so busy that we don't get to stick around for endless amounts of days being served tastey food.
I miss school pictures in elementary school when nobody cared how your picture turned out and all the girls wore pretty dresses and the boys wore little ties around their necks.
I miss the first cell phone that I had and it's simplicity and how cool I thought I was to own an actual cell phone.
I miss my friends that used to care about me before they found new people to hang out with.
I am happy that I know how new friends that care about me more than them and can treat me with a little more respect.
I'm sad that some of these friends are going to leave me soon, however.

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